nehkoh's Xanga

I need to fly...

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 06:19:19 GMT

Sometimes I feel like there's this unknown force that is keeping me from being contented with my life. Whenever something of worth comes along; something that has a possibility of making me happy, it swoops right in and steals it away, replacing it with something else, leaving me with guilt and regret because I thought that I'd finally be happy. Problems everywhere. Family, love, finances, study. I just wish I could just stop time for a little while to absorb everything in and find a way to make it all better.

If only it was that easy.

But that's life right? You get hurt. You make mistakes. You go through hard times. You sacrifice.

But you learn. You face your fears. In the end, when it's all over, when you survived through it all, you'll take a look at yourself and you'll be proud of what you've become.

I wish I could be proud of myself.

Someone set me free? :'(

Currently Listening: Blink 182 - Adam's Song

Photos~! X3

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 13:19:21 GMT

The bbq last night was cool :D It was the first time for me to try tequila.. haha I had like 3 shots. Then my mom stopped them from giving me more. (I wanted more though ;o; ) So I just drank vodka+cranberry juice and vodka+sprite. lol~ I didn't get tipsy though.. I wanted to at least get tipsy.. *sigh* Oh well. I laughed a lot~~ hehe The male to female ratio was waaaay off cuz there were a lot of gays :P It got pretty crazy with all the sex jokes. hahhaha

Also met some new people but I didn't catch their names or contacts @_@;;; hahahah.. There's gonna be another bbq next month (It's a monthly thing now) so I hope they'll be there too. Then we can all get to know each other more :)

Took some photos last Sunday evening with my sister and Shane, my dad's girlfriend. :D We walked around together while my dad was getting his hair cut~ Then we all had dinner in Triple O's. Whoa the burgers there are huge~! We just ordered two burgers and we each ate half. haha~~~

It's nice how everyone's so concered with me and my stalker. @~@; I haven't heard from him or seen him since he last called but if he does call or come by the shop again, I'll be sure to threaten him by saying that I'll report him to the police. If that doesn't work, I'll tell my mom and I'll ask if I can have like a month leave or something. If I don't go to work for a month, he might think I'm not working there anymore? Maybe he'll stop going there or calling? ;___;.....

Stalker ;___;

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 07:19:30 GMT

I'm HUNGRYYYYY....... It's past 4pm and I haven't eaten anythingggg.. Just drank a cup of coffee this morning on the way to work. I'm trying to save some room for dinner later. I'm going to a beach barbeque with my mom and some other people who work around where I work. :D I hope I don't feel too left out though. I need to learn how to socialize. I know I'll do fine if only they all talk in English. But I think they're all going to speak in Tagalog. lol I'm ok with them speaking in tagalog; I can understand most of what they're saying. It's just that when they speak to me in Tagalog, I feel like they expect me to reply in Tagalog, as well. Thing is, my Tagalog isn't that fluent yet and I still can't make complete sentences properly. hahaha. I know I can reply to them in English. They understand English fine. But it just feels weird when they speak to me in Tagalog and I reply to them in English... @___@;;; Oh well... I just have to cope.....

I've been trying to learn how to play the guitar recently. :D So far, so good. The guitar at home is kinda big, though, so playing certain chords are kinda difficult. @w@;; My hand is small... :P Moo.

Gah. I have this scary stalker... X____X; Long story short: He used to look at me through the shop window, one day he came in, asked my name. I said my name was Anna. I didn't want to tell my real name. But I should've said something else because Anna is so close to Antonette... --; Anyway, he took a stolen shot of me with his mobile phone before. X_X And he managed to get the shop's phone number. So he calls now.. X_X EE.. I told him I had a bf (JP's my pretend bf for that. haha) but he's still bugging me ;___; The first time he called he said, "If you told me that you didn' have a bf, I would've asked my father to get this girl so I can marry." WTF. What makes him think I want to marry him!? ;_____; help..... He called just a few minutes ago and was like "I miss you. I haven't seen you in a long time." XP EW. When he was putting down the phone he said he'll call again and I was like, "No. Can you please stop calling me?" I don't know if he'll listen. Can't he get the picture? Speaking of pictures, he wants my picture! .... ToT;; I don't know what to doooo......

Currently Listening: Papa Roach - Scars (Acoustic)

;o;

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 02:17:33 GMT

I haven't blogged for so long that I've already forgotten how to blog @_@;; ahahaha

I went shopping with my sister the other day! X3 OMG I miss her so much! She's been reallllly busy lately with school, church and dance practices that I barely see her. She arrives home really late (around 11-ish) and once she gets home, she goes straight to bed. :( When I wake up in the morning for work, she's either already left for school (on weekdays) or still sleeping (on weekends).... So shopping with her the other day was really nice~~~ ♥

We walked around Central and Mong Kok to find an outfit for her to wear for her dance performance yesterday. I helped her pick out what to wear. I also got a new miniskirt and new bra+underwear sets for myself (and for her). The bra+underwear set is so cute omg~~~ Who can I show it to? HAHAHAH

We had a snack and drank some coffee in Pacific Coffee Company. It was nice talking and updating each other with what was happening in our lives heheh~~

My lovelife has cooled down recently, compared with late March to early May. Whoa, my lovelife was like a Korean Drama then! Too complicated to blog about. Let's just say that I loved the person who didn't love me and I didn't love the person who did love me... XD Plus some extra guys on the side.

I miss Teh Ecchis (Yuna, Aido, TJ) so much right now. (OMGIMISSYOUTOOOPAL!) We all haven't hung out for SOOOOO long. I can't even remember the last time we all hung out, just us four. At times like these, I wish I lived in Hung Hom... Or at least in Kowloon...... Let's all pray that my dad decides to move to Hung Hom ;o;... Everyone's so busy that it's hard to set up a day when we all are free. But Aido will resign from his job soon, TJ's week-long holiday is coming and Yuna's school holidays already started. So its up to me, basically. :D And I'm almost always free~ 8D

My dad's girlfriend is in Hong Kong. She arrived early May. It was really awkward around her, at first.... I mean... She's just a few years older than me @_@;;;; It's like me dating one of my friend's dads... Errr.. Anyway, we're starting to ease up with each other. She's just as shy as I am. haha. But now we're talking to each other more and we get along quite well. Probably because of our age range. haha. She could be the older sister I never had. Except that she's my dad's girlfriend. Actually, she's his fiancee now :D They're getting married in July~! I wonder if I'm going to get another step-sibling.. @_____@;;;; EEee.. Kinda weird thinking about that right now. hahah

Currently Listening: Justin Timberlake - Take It From Here

HAPPY NEW MONTH! I'm Back! :D

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 12:02:05 GMT

Whoaaa. How long has it been? 4 months?! :O! *LEGASP*... My last post was about problems at home. I'm glad to say I'm happier now. Why? I moved out of my mom's place and moved in with my dad :D My sister's with me too~ So yes, that is one of the reasons I've stopped blogging.. @~@;; The pc here at my dad's place is OOOOOOLLLLLLDDDD... AS IN sOOper!... Windows 98 and Windows 2000... Crashes a lot.. Can't use msn messenger and Firefox unless I'm on Windows 2000.... Eee...

But one good thing is that it has a LOT of music :D *soundTRIPS* moo! ♥

SO... In the past 4 months, loads of stuff happened... Good and Bad. :( Since there are a lot of things to mention, let me be TEH COOL and post them in point format. Nyahaha.

Good
- Moved in with dad.
- Love life is improving haha
- Tagalog is improving too~ YAY
- New haircut! :O I have bangs nowwww~!!!
- New friends!!! X3
- New clothing style (OwO)b
- Opal came to visit!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad
- Stalkers!! @_@;;; EEEE scary ToT;
- Got my heart broken. Twice.. By the same guy >_> wtf....
- Broke someone's heart :(
- Yeast Infection down there :/ my first.... :( Ick..
- Got something taken away from me...
- SO outdated with Bleach ;o;
- Opal left again ;______;

I can't really remember everything o_O;; But I'll explain them if I remember as I start blogging again~~

I miss everyone ;o;!!! Not many people are blogging on Tabulas anymore, huh? It's nice to know that some people still remember me XD (♥ Maki, Fei, Thuy)

Mmm.. In April, Opal came to visit Hong Kong. (OMGIMISSYOUSOMUCH) The first day she was here, she called my phone. Once I heard her voice on the phone, I was like "OPALL!!!!!! OMGGGGG!!!!" hahaha even after a year of not hearing her voice, I can still remember it X3 I think we talked on the phone everyday when she was in Hong Kong.. We talked for at least 2 hours each day, which is why I think my mobile phone bill went up to $2700HKD... O_O;;;; lol....(It's temporarily cut right now because I haven't paid it omg haha. I have a new temporary number for those who want to contact me. Just message me or something)

TJ put up a video of us on youtube. lol CLICK.. I was looking at the picture that Opal took of us on her phone and he started recording us >_>;

Anyway.... HMMM... I don't really know what to blog about right now @~@; Just thought I'd say I'm back :D I'll start blogging more frequently now~ X3 I miss you guys!

FFXII!!!! Come to neko (@o@)/

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 03:14:33 GMT

Yay~ I'm all better now! :D I can sleep on my left side!!!!! AHAHAHA Let us rejoice! *dances*

Quite a few things happened recently. For one thing, I've decided to not go to the Philippines to study. I'm going to start working seriously. ie. go get a real job and not work here in my mom's shop where I get less than the minimum wage. lol. My dad said he has a friend who works in a Travel Agency that is interested in having me. I'm going to go for an informal interview sometime in the coming week so I hope it goes well. If it does, I might be able to start work in March. In the meantime, I need to tell my mom about this...

She still thinks I'm going to the Philippines.. @~@; I'm not that close to her, you see. And with a big decision like this, she'll surely criticize me. My dad says to tell her ASAP because she'll need time to find a replacement to help out in the shop... @~@; I dunno how to tell her....

TJ let me borrow his demo of FFXII!!!!!!! ZOMGZOMGZOMG I can't wait for it to be released! Everything is so cooool. I love how the battle system is now. I love how you can move around while the battle is going on. I have to get used to the command windows not popping up, though. But it's no problem when "Gambit" is turned on. 8D I wonder what the level-up system will be like... I didn't really like the dresspheres from FFX-2.... asdfaweflkasjdf;iawe! Does anyone know when the international version be released? X___X

I also borrowed We ♥ Katamari. :D I'm not going to finish the game in 3 days unlike someone I know *coughcough*..... haha.

Hung out with TJ and Aido last Friday. We watched Fun with Dick and Jane at Aido's place. (WHERE IS LANA ;_;????) The beginning was pretty boring... :/ But when it got to the end I got interested. lol. I really like the scene where they were using the machine for the voice overs. hahah Too funny. XD

I've been sorta insecure about my appearance recently. Especially my weight. I've actually thought of going bulimic. Which is just wrong. Wrong wrong wrong. Don't worry. I won't. I don't know why or how I suddenly feel this way, though. ;_; PMS maybe. haha.

Currently Listening: Kyla - Because of You

Mumps?

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 09:26:44 GMT

The area between my left ear and jaw is swollen.... ;___; It's pretty painful. :( It's been like this for 4 days now. I especially hate it when it's time to sleep. I can't put pressure on my left ear because it hurts when I do. So I can't lie down on my left side :( I told my mom about it and she said it might be mumps. This sucks. XP

But it's alright because some nice stuff happened these past few days 8D They kinda evened out my suffering. lol

[paragraph deleted XD]

Tuesday. I met up with Iris! She's back from Taiwan for vacation X3 So happy to see her again~~ heheh We went to watch Memoirs of a Geisha. Beautiful movie *nodnod* But that wasn't the highlight of the evening XD It's what happened after the movie 8D We were walking towards my place when we saw this group of people crowded around two men. One was dressed as a mime o.O The other one had a unicycle. They had other stuff on the floor so Iris and I stopped to watch. The place where we were standing were like front row seats XD The performers were facing us when they started ergo I became victim #1. The mime was the first to perform. He was pulling this string and it was leading to me @~@;; I thought I'd join in so I moved in closer when he pulled XD I don't think he expected that because he was like, "Ooo." haha. So anyway, he cut the string that was leading to me and he tied it up to a balloon... He gave the balloon to me but it flew away >_>;; ... An invisible balloon of course XD

It's such a shame that I didn't have my camera at the time because they did some really awesome stuff. My phone was running out of battery so I couldn't use that either :( They did things like spinning a plate that was on fire and juggling fire torches on a unicycle @_@;;;;

Anyway~~~! ♥♥♥ I THINK I FOUND MY SIGNATURE SCENT @o@/♥ You know how when you smell certain scents, you think, "Oh, insert name here must be coming." Well, my friends, when you smell Davidoff's Cool Water for Women, then get ready because neko is coming. XD I've always loved Davidoff's Cool Water for men but I never thought of buying the women's version until I saw it on sale in a cosmetic store near my place a few days ago :D So yay for me! ehehehe

Currently Listening: Eminem - When I'm Gone

Picture Post! 8D

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 15:42:38 GMT

BUT FIRST UP!

My Fort Minor poster and CD+DVD. ♥ I took out my Fullmetal Alchemist poster and replaced it with the Fort Minor one. (The FMA poster was peeling off anyway XD)

omg it's me @.@

and me again....

guess who? XD

seriously. @w@; I didn't know it was THAT long.... While going home from work today, I was thinking if I should cut it. But after I took these pics, I don't think I will... I kinda like it ^^

O3O/♥

Trying to be cute @~@;

Trying to be artistic? @w@;;;;

Enough me, LOOK! My lovely converse all stars ♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!!!!!!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥!!! XD

I don't know what to name her... X3 Any suggestions?

I want a skateboard @_@

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 12:33:52 GMT

I suddenly want a skateboard. XD Yesterday, while I was window shopping at Langham Place (a mall near where I live), I saw this deck for a skateboard OwO;;; It was omg!CUTE.... I saw another one with an apple too. XDDD I don't remember exactly how much it was but I know it was less than a thousand but more than 900HKD. 8D I am seriously considering getting one...... Thing is, there aren't many places in Hong Kong to skateboard so I need to look up on that. :/

Skaterboys are hot ;)

Since my LJ is paid now, I sent $10USD so I can have 100 userpics. I sent them last week so hopefully they'll receive it today or tomorrow @w@b I can't wait~~~ hehe

I bought a new pair of Converse All Stars yesterday ♥ I'm wearing them now XD They're so cute! The body has like a brown cow print pattern, the lining and inside is pink, the rubber sidewall is white with a pink stripe and the laces are pink! XD Me wubs them!!! The look great when I wear my pink ankle socks. 8D

I also bought this! It's hanging on Kirei-chan (my mobile) now :D So pretty~~~

2006, they say, is the year of the fire dog~ I hear it will be a good year for those born in the year of the tiger. So! My fellow 1986-ers! LET US REJOICE! XDDDD 2005 was one of the worst years in my life. I really hope that 2006 will be a lot more interesting with more focus on my love life *cough* XD

Happy New Year~!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 13:56:21 GMT

In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Slap stupid people in the head.

Get your resolution here

Fufufu~~ *slaps self* @wO; hehe

I got myself a new domain @o@. Only a few people know about it. I have to figure out what to use it for though. So now I have eien.nu, soul-candy.org and the mystery domain XD

I hope Netrillium renewed eien.nu soon though @_@; I renewed it on the 30th but still no reply from them about it. When I login enom, it says it expires on "1/2/2006 12:09:00 PM"... I'm really worried.. did Netrillium renew it on time?!?!?

Maki is making me a layout for soul-candy.org. :D *huggles teh maki* She showed an unfinished copy of it to me the other day and OMGGGGG IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! I can't wait to use it and show it off *w*

OHOH! My LJ is paid now *___* Thanks to the G2 hosting package at xfluro.net ;)

And poo XP My mom wants to use the pc........

Wish you all have a great start to the new year, my lovesssss ♥♥♥